Finally... its all over

After enduring two and a half year of pain and silence, its all over now ^^v

Thinking it back, it started on 2009.. where I am only a waiting list peoples.. waiting to be recruited by either UBD or ITB.. But luckily, ITB had select me to be part of a group.. Business Accounting..

I could not believe myself for able to enter the University... I cry silently.. thanking god for allowing me to pursue my dream although all my friends may look down upon me...

I could not believe that I am at the same University with my beloved cousin ^^ Haji Khairul Dini :) both of us had been in terrible pain because of what had been happen n 2010.. and thank god... he had calmed me to think wisely.. every advices he gave, I took it without a doubt.. I really don't care of what people may think about him, as long as our Nawaitu Hati remain unchanged and stick to the right path.. its all that matter most..

Spending two and a half years with my colleagues, has a lot of memorable experience that I will surely treasure most... thankfully, there is no serious conflict occur amongst ourselves.. and that is what I wish to see... For me, I rather be in silence and cherish the moment in silence... call me a hermit crab if you want to.. it's just.. I guess..I always get the feeling that I wasn't needed here... Still, all of them are the most energetic and strong will peoples I've ever seen in my life :)

In the second part of 2010, surely I'll miss my attachment place :s it really teach me everything related to the real life situation and 'real' communication within the government.. Audit and Taxation... the part where most of the accountants feel hard to absorb (only Audit part)... all the assessment formulae really aid me to do the calculation a bit faster as usual and enable me to think out of the box ^^v I really in debt to my old attachment place for teaching me the value of learning and experience :))

The Final Semester... just listening to this really make anyone goosebump... it's the final semester where pain and conflict may arise :/ However, I am fortunate to have Asymawi, Qawiem, Rozainah, Hafidah and Nabilah to be my team mates :) for the past two or three month of togetherness, we face every stage by teamwork and delegation of work :) it's really fun and apart from that, all of us do really learn the procedures in making a business plan :) the day of the presentation itself is a 'firework'or should I say, AWESOME ^^, all of them are doing their work and mine, had a stage fright issue at the end of the presentation - my apologies guys :S

Still, all of us are happy to be ranked as no 6 based upon the criteria judged by the 'honorable' external assessor... yeah right.... Still I'm dissatisfied with one of the external assessor :/

*chuckle* since when do I use emoticons to describe how I feel...

It happen when I meet a lady known as Fazrin :) Honesty, Modesty, Sincerity and Beauty are all the values I can see from her :) the way she smile is enough to make me forgetting the past and proceed to the future ^^
Seriously, she is my saviour in my time of need.. and.. I don't want to lose her... I just don't want to be turned into heartless and  a loner anymore...

hmph... that's all for now...

maybe it is not to late for me to say..... it is finally a FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM  from two and half years
v^.^v

Feeling sad and alone plus anger

Lalalala Soo Stresssful is in the house....

Anger comes with a devilish intention.... can't let the voices clouding my judgement...

Lalalalalalalalalalala..... Silence is the golden weapon of all... nobody what am I thinking of, whining of, or care of...

I care my cousins whom become my pillar, my love whom motivate me and friends to accompany me...

Just for today... Let the Golden Silent enforced...

on 8th July 2011, it's the most memorable experience for me :

not only it's an invitation by someone - let it be unknown :), but it's the marvelous sight i've ever seen :)

many weaponaries, cars and especially aircraft has flew and shows dazzling performance that enough to shock the first timer like me :)

congratulation on everyone whom participate on Bridex occasion and you too :) thanks for inviting and showing me all the way of the Bridex exhibition :)

but, i think, for the future improvement.. It's better for the parents to brought earphones for their babies :) the sonic soundwaves can hurt the lil one hearing abilities in the future and this kinda make me sad...

Seriously... Its good to let the kids to dream high for the future.. But nevertheless.. Don't forget about their safety...

In the amidst of it, i surely can't take my eyes from you :p
all the noises and disturbances.. Still never changing how i feel :)

look @ the time :) its curfew already....

Who is she? All i can say and do is just smile :)))

summarization of May, June and July...

it's been a while i'm leaving this blog to pursue achievement in exam... Almost how many month did i miss.. How many month do i hold everything back...

Time and time and time and time.... Sweet like a nectar but rotten as devil... Its undeniable the journey i had... Somehow lift me up, and at the same time.. Tossed me down...

The exam is over and Alhamdulilah... Proceed to the next semester...

To be honest, before the result coming out... I've already had an premonition... Of what will happen on the next day... Thank You Allah.. For answering my pray... Giving me an insight of what will happen... I'm truly and forever be your slave for eternity...

After the result had been released, I had been struck long lasting fever... Unknown where it comes, strike me without warning and make me less active in facebook and twitter... But i'm gladly accepting it as part of my journey...

23rd and 24th June of 2011... It's the most memorable experience for me.. I take part as an ajk for ITB Youth Outreach Programme @ kem ibadah... Lots of things i do really learned from it and never thought that... Refreshment sacrifice a lot of energy to cater everyone needs :) it totally fun for me and lots of unforgetable memories emerge as... I took part of it... Totally priceless...

In the verge of july, I've admit... I might hard to understand as my point might upsy turvy @ upside down @ shallow and etc... Serious chains of comments... Make me really wonder... Do i really need to be part of everything? I just do not know what had happen... Until stupidity strike...

Kekurangan ku kelebihan mu, kekurangan mu kelebihan ku

i simply grow tired of everything... Maybe its better for me to be excommunicating with others ... Maybe its beter this way....

Time is ticking and the holiday is declining as words has been
put to this blog... Its a getaway @ remedy for a loner like me... :)

sadness...

sadness always be part of me
never ever be break the chains that
I wish to leave

I will just sail away
as it
is my time to leave
rainy days
are yours to keep

end

21 is a curse

Every 21... spell a disastrous effect on me... That day... She asked for a break up... Lots of things has occur a lot... I has try my best... to avoid contacting that connected with her... still why... the pain is there? why I destined to be tortured like this? Happiness... just a set up to hide fear... within my childish act...there lies terrible sadness I hide...

at the end lonliness always get the best of me... thus losing trust... forever trust in love...

Junior Masterchef Australia

When I'm bored during CNY, *Gong Xi Fa Cai to all my chinese friend*, I watch a channel from astro that shows that even kids can make a differ in cooking... Only one particular contestant captivate my eyes =)

Her name is Saffiyah, 12 years old girl (?). To me, honestly, I'll never treat her as a juvenile anymore. from what I can see, she has bloom into a great muslimah.. and Masya Allah, her beauty, has captivate me... soothe this heart and this, I cry...  realising, how great her parent obeying Allah's order..

Her innocent has soothe the beast within me, and replace it with a vision to pursue Allah satisfaction even more...

Here is what she looks like in 2010 =)