Times fly faster and so does my broken heart...
Talking about time, will it heal my pain? NEVER... I'm not an avenger though... Haha... Its true that I has changed drastically... I'm no longer the same Syamim that all of you might know...
In the past, I might be cheerful, active, warming and etc... but now... After that 'incident', I locked myself away from everything... I abdicate half of my time remembering Allah, Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) and Islamic teaching...
A test of Faith in trusting Allah is better than trusting a woman... It will never wilt, dies nor betray me... Trusting a woman has make me weak for all time... Should I lay my trust or just walk away from it?
Decision oh decision... my.. my.. Time has been cruel to me... it will never be good to me...
Yet, I able to withstand it thanks due to always keep listening to some old 1990's songs and recite Yassin...
I always carry small books that contain Suras Yassin on it... I've been keep recite the Sura's until I didn't have the energy left in my jinx body... After recite it 3 times (or more perhaps)...
I've to admit that nowadays, I can easily be teased to a point of meltdown occur... Everytime it happen, one thing came into my mind - Surau (any place where I can't be seen or look for - a complete silence)
Now, Commitment...
- Aiding Family
- Abdicate to Allah
- Stay away from woman as far as I can
- Erasing sweet memories for all years (including that 'incident')
- Tease me , I'm gone =P
Simple as that...
Now is 1.16 pm... and not having lunch yet... Things to do... Pray First, Eat Later
Can't Wait for tomorrow~~~~~~~~
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